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当我同你做游戏的时候，我从来没有问过你是谁。我不懂得羞怯和惧怕，我的生活是热闹的。
清晨你就来把我唤醒，像我自己的伙伴一样，带着我跑过林野。
那些日子，我从来不想去了解你对我唱的歌曲的意义。我只随声附和，我的心应节跳舞。
现在，游戏的时光已过，这突然来到我眼前的情景是什么呢？世界低下眼来看着你的双脚，和它肃静的众星一同敬畏地站着。
When my play was with thee I never questioned who thou wert. I knew nor shyness nor fear， my life was boisterous.
In the early morning thou wouldst call me from my sleep like my own comrade and lead me running from glade to glade.
On those days I never cared to know the meaning of songs thou sang to me. Only my voice took up the tunes， and my heart danced in their cadence.
Now， when the playtime is over， what is this sudden sight that is come upon me？The world with eyes bent upon thy feet stands in awe with all its silent stars.
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我要以胜利品，我失败的花环，来装饰你。逃避不受征服，是我永远做不到的。
我准知道我的骄傲会碰壁，我的生命将因着极端的痛苦而炸裂，我空虚的心将像一枝空苇呜咽出哀音，顽石也融成眼泪。
我准知道莲花的百瓣不会永远闭合，深藏的花蜜定将显露。
从碧空将有一只眼睛向我凝视，在默默地召唤我。我将空无所有，绝对的空无所有，我将从你脚下领受绝对的死亡。
I will deck thee with trophies， garlands of my defeat. It is never in my power to escape unconquered.
I surely know my pride will go to the wall， my life will burst its bonds in exceeding pain， and my empty heart will sob out in music like a hollow reed， and the stone will melt in tears.
I surely know the hundred petals of a lotus will not remain closed for ever and the secret recess of its honey will be bared.
From the blue sky an eye shall gaze upon me and summon me in silence. Nothing will be left for me， nothing whatever， and utter death shall I receive at thy feet.
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当我放下舵盘，我知道你来接收的时候到了。当做的事立刻要做了，挣扎是无用的。
那就把手拿开，静默地承认失败吧。我的心呵，要想到能在你的岗位上默坐，还算是幸运的。
我的几盏灯都被一阵阵的微风吹灭了，为想把它们重新点起，我屡屡地把其他的事情都忘却了。
这次我要聪明一点，把我的席子铺在地上，在暗中等候。
什么时候你高兴，我的主，悄悄地走来坐下吧。
When I give up the helm I know that the time has come for thee to take it. What there is to do will be instantly done.Vain is this struggle.
Then take away your hands and silently put up with your defeat， my heart， and think it your good fortune to sit perfectly still where you are placed.
These my lamps are blown out at every little puff of wind， and trying to light them I forget all else again and again.
But I shall be wise this time and wait in the dark， spreading my mat on the foor； and whenever it is thy pleasure， my lord， come silently and take thy seat here.
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我跳进形象海洋的深处，希望能得到那无形象的完美的珍珠。
我不再以我的旧船去走遍海港，我乐于弄潮的日子早已过去了。
现在我渴望死于不死之中。
我要拿起我生命的弦琴，进入无底深渊旁边，那座涌出无调乐音的广厅。
我要调拨我的琴弦，和永恒的乐音合拍，当它呜咽出最后的声音时，就把我静默的琴儿放在静默的脚边。
I dive down into the depth of the ocean of forms， hoping to gain the perfect pearl of the formless.
No more sailing from harbour to harbour with this my weather-beaten boat. The days are long passed when my sport was to be tossed on waves.
And now I am eager to die into the deathless.
Into the audience hall by the fathomless abyss where swells up the music of toneless strings I shall take this harp of my life.
I shall tune it to the notes of forever， and when it has sobbed out its last utterance， lay down my silent harp at the feet of the silent.
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我这一生永远以诗歌来寻求你。它们领我从这门走到那门，我和它们一同摸索，寻求着，接触着我的世界。
我所学过的功课，都是诗歌教给我的；它们把捷径指示给我，它们把我心里地平线上的许多星辰，带到我的眼前。
它们整天地带领我走向苦痛和快乐的神秘之国，最后，在我旅程终点的黄昏，它们要把我带到哪一座宫殿的门首呢？
Ever in my life have I sought thee with my songs. It was they who led me from door to door， and with them have I felt about me， searching and touching my world.
It was my songs that taught me all the lessons I ever learnt； they showed me secret paths， they brought before my sight many a star on the horizon of my heart.
They guided me all the day long to the mysteries of the country of pleasure and pain， and， at last， to what palace gate have the brought me in the evening at the end of my journey？
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我在人前夸说我认得你。在我的作品中，他们看到了你的画像，他们走来问：“他是谁？”我不知道怎么回答。我说，“真的，我说不出来。”他们斥责我，轻蔑地走开了，你却坐在那里微笑。
我把你的事迹编成不朽的诗歌，秘密从我心中涌出。他们走来问我：“把所有的意思都告诉我们吧。”我不知道怎样回答。我说：“呵，谁知道那是什么意思！”他们讪笑了，鄙夷至极地走开，你却坐在那里微笑。
I boasted among men that I had known you. They see your pictures in all works of mine.They come and ask me， "Who is he？" I know not how to answer them.I say， "Indeed， I cannot tell." They blame me and they go away in scorn.And you sit there smiling.
I put my tales of you into lasting songs. The secret gushes out from my heart.They come and ask me， "Tell me all your meanings." I know not how to answer them.I say， "Ah， who knows what they mean！" They smile and go away in utter scorn.And you sit there smiling.
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在我向你合十膜拜之中，我的上帝，让我一切的感知都舒展在你的脚下，接触这个世界。
像七月的湿云，带着未落的雨点沉沉下垂，在我向你合十膜拜之中，让我的全副心灵在你的门前俯伏。
让我所有的诗歌，聚集起不同的调子，在我向你合十膜拜之中，成为一股洪流，倾注入静寂的大海。
像一群思乡的鹤鸟，日夜飞向他们的山巢，在我向你合十膜拜之中，让我全部的生命，启程回到它永久的家乡。
In one salutation to thee， my God， let all my senses spread out and touch this world at thy feet.
Like a rain-cloud of July hung low with its burden of unshed showers let all my mind bend down at thy door in one salutation to thee.
Let all my songs gather together their diverse strains into a single current and f ow to a sea of silence in one salutation to thee.
Like a flock of homesick cranes flying night and day back to their mountain nests let all my life take its voyage to its eternal home in one salutation to thee.
