登陆注册
5489700000075

第75章 XXVII(2)

And wholly as he might realize man's insignifi-cance among the blind forces of nature, he could accept it philosophically and die with his soul uncor-roded by misanthropy, that final and uncompromis-ing admission of failure. The misanthrope was the supreme failure of life because he had not the in-telligence to realize, or could not reconcile himself to, the incomplete condition of human nature. Man was made up of little qualities, and aspirations for great ones. Many yielded in the struggle and sank into impotent discontent among the small material things of life, instead of uplifting themselves with the picture of the inevitable future when develop-ment had run its course, and indulgently pitying the children of their own period who so often made life hateful with their greed, selfishness, snobbery--most potent obstacle to human endeavor--and in-justice. The bad judgment of the mass! How many careers it had balked, if not ruined, with its poor ideals, its mean heroes, its instinctive avoid-ance of superior qualities foreign to itself, its con-temptible desire to be identified with a fashion. It was this low standard of the crowd that induced misanthropy in many otherwise brave spirits who lacked the insight to discern the divine spark un-derneath, the persistence, sure of reward, to fight their way to this spark and reveal it to the gaze of astonished and flattered humanity. Rezanov's very arrogance had led him to regard the mass of man-kind as but one degree removed from the nursery; his good nature and philosophical spirit to treat them with an indulgence that kept sourness out of his cynicism and inevitably recurring weariness and disgust; his ardent imagination had consoled itself with the vision of a future when man should live in a world made reasonable by the triumph of ideals that now lurked half ashamed in the high spaces of the human mind.

He looked back in wonder at the moment of wild regret and protest--the bitterer in its silence--when they had told him he must die; when in the last rally of the vital forces he had believed his will was still strong enough to command his ravaged body, to propel his brain, still teeming with a vast and complicated future, his heart, still warm and insistent with the image it cherished, on to the ulti-mates of ambition and love. How brief it had been, that last cry of mortality, with its accompaniment of furious wonder at his unseemly and senseless cutting off. In the adjustment and readjustment of political and natural forces the world ambled on philosophically, fulfilling its inevitable destiny.

If he had not been beyond humor, he would have smiled at the idea that in the face of all eternity it mattered what nation on one little planet eventually possessed a fragment called California. To him that fair land was empty and purposeless save for one figure, and even of her he thought with the terrible calm of dissolution. During these last months of illness and isolation he had been less lonely than at any time of his life save during those few weeks in California, for he had lived with her incessantly in spirit; and in that subtle imaginative communion had pressed close to a profound and complex soul, revealed before only in flashes to a vision astray in the confusion of the senses. He had felt that her response to his passion was far more vital and enduring than dwelt in the capacity of most women; he had appreciated her gifts of mind, her piquant variousness that scotched monot-ony, the admirable characteristics that would give a man repose and content in his leisure, and subtly advance his career. But in those long reveries, at the head of his forlorn caravan or in the desolate months of convalescence, he had arrived at an abso-lute understanding of what she herself had divined while half comprehending.

Theirs was one of the few immortal loves that reveal the rarely sounded deeps of the soul while in its frail tenement on earth; and he harbored not a doubt that their love was stronger than mortality and that their ultimate union was decreed. Mean-while, she would suffer, no one but he could dream how completely, but her strong soul would conquer, and she would live the life she had visioned in mo-ments of despair; not of cloistered selfishness, but of incomparable usefulness to her little world; and far happier, in her eternal youthfulness of heart, in that divine life of the imagination where he must always be with her as she had known him briefly at his best, than in the blunt commonplaceness of daily existence, the routine and disillusionment of the world. Perhaps--who knew?--he had, after all, given her the best that man can offer to a woman of exalted nature; instead of taking again with his left hand what his right had bestowed; completed the great gift of life with the priceless beacon of death.

How unlike was life to the old Greek tragedies!

He recalled his prophetic sense of impending happiness, success, triumph, as he entered California, the rejuvenescence of his spirit in the renewal of his wasted forces even before he loved the woman.

Every event of the past year, in spite of the obstacles that mortal must expect, had marched with his am-bitions and desires, and straight toward a future that would have given him the most coveted of all destinies, a station in history. There had not been a hint that his brain, so meaningly and consummately equipped, would perish in the ruins of his body in less than a twelvemonth from that fragrant morn-ing when he had entered the home of Concha Arguello tingling with a pagan joy in mere existence, a sudden rush of desire for the keen, wild happiness of youth--His eyes wandered from the bright cross above the little cemetery where he was to lie, and con-tracted with an expression of wonder. Where had Jon found Castilian roses in this barren land? No man had ever been more blest in a servant, but could even he--here-- With the last triumph of will over matter he raised his head, his keen, search-ing gaze noting every detail of the room, bare and unlovely save for its altar and ikons, its kneeling priests and nuns. His eyes expanded, his nostrils quivered. As he sank down in the embrace of that final delusion, his unconquerably sanguine spirit flared high before a vision of eternal and unthink-able happiness.

So died Rezanov; and with him the hope of Russians and the hindrance of Americans in the west; and the mortal happiness and earthly dross of the saintliest of California's women.

同类推荐
  • The Moravians in Georgia

    The Moravians in Georgia

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 西昆酬唱集

    西昆酬唱集

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • Captain Blood

    Captain Blood

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • Lavender and Old Lace

    Lavender and Old Lace

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 卢照邻诗集

    卢照邻诗集

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
热门推荐
  • 超级万能卡片系统

    超级万能卡片系统

    (无敌文争霸文)楚风穿越异界,获的超级万能卡片系统,系统里面拥有诸天万界各种物品,人物、武将,神仙、妖魔,功法、武技丹药、武器,所有物品化做的卡片,楚风在系统的帮助下,争霸诸天万界,踏上人生巅峰,醒掌天下权,醉卧美人膝,在无敌的路上越走越远。老作者新书,欢迎品读。
  • 战神情缘

    战神情缘

    他是战神转世,他的转世仅仅是因为避不开天劫吗?还是有其他别的原因?开天神斧是远古盘古大神所用,和他究竟有什么关系?开天神斧背后究竟隐藏着什么秘密?天界和魔界的争斗,究竟有什么渊源?这些都和他有什么关系?
  • 明朝作品集

    明朝作品集

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 追妻无门:女boss不好惹

    追妻无门:女boss不好惹

    青涩蜕变,如今她是能独当一面的女boss,爱了冷泽聿七年,也同样花了七年时间去忘记他。以为是陌路,他突然向他表白,扬言要娶她,她只当他是脑子抽风,他的殷勤她也全都无视。他帮她查她父母的死因,赶走身边情敌,解释当初拒绝她的告别,和故意对她冷漠都是无奈之举。突然爆出她父母的死居然和冷家有丝毫联系,还莫名跳出个公爵未婚夫,扬言要与她履行婚约。峰回路转,破镜还能重圆吗? PS:我又开新文了,每逢假期必书荒,新文《有你的世界遇到爱》,喜欢我的文的朋友可以来看看,这是重生类现言,对这个题材感兴趣的一定要收藏起来。
  • 落霞染衣

    落霞染衣

    传说上古魔剑可以蛊惑人的心灵,让人获得巨大的力量,但也会反噬人的灵魂,让人成为剑的傀儡。妖王大劫将至,人人都想得到灵丹。为了防止有心怀不轨之人,得到灵丹屠害生灵,殷家大公子殷泀空,暗中搜寻妖王灵丹的下落。云华教大护法云染衣,攻打三玄宫,结果却被关水牢两年。天下第一尚宫千秋,为自己所爱之人,一夜屠城。
  • 浮山法句

    浮山法句

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 我来自星河时代

    我来自星河时代

    草原上,半人马三五成群地赶着暗鳞马。牛头人正在城墙上执勤。城内,不少工厂的烟囱一起开始冒烟。向宁正躺在摇椅上喝着古茗。看着远处正在制造的最新款发电机。你以为这就结束了吗?一场来自异界的工业革命才刚刚开始。(当向宁发现自己是女武神妹妹的早夭哥哥后,故事开始了。向宁:什么(?o?;我明年三月就要死了?)
  • 寂静玛尼歌

    寂静玛尼歌

    浪子啊,你虽已死,但你能否说出,在你短暂的一生中,有多少次远足值得铭记?因为有着在戈麦高地上与康巴藏人一同游牧四野的传奇经历,作为一个汉人,柴春芽才敢于书写他对中国西部牧野生活的缅怀。因为漫游了西藏大地并最终皈依了藏传佛教,柴春芽才勇于坦露心迹,探索灵魂的深度与载力。
  • 宅女妖妻:这个夫君有点坏

    宅女妖妻:这个夫君有点坏

    突然而来的赐婚,伴着清晰的梦境,入了轮回。洞房花烛,竟见了那一身久藏于心的皮相。费力的讨好,只求一分安守,却不想步步走错,没了退路。在这深宅府院,吞噬了七情,了却一颗玲珑心,却独独留下了蛇蝎。心狠上位的烟尘女子,纯真无邪的林家姊妹,一个当家夫婿,纷纷收了身旁。众人各房心思,身边还偏得个机灵小姑子,分分推着上前搅。一个又一个阴谋,一环又一环心计,等心明之时,早已由不得自己。和尚说,了了这众生之缘,方得回返之道。可眼见了这些,心痛,心狠,心惜,心绝,心念,又何能得来了却?“这一步,走出去万劫不复,退回来,则后患无穷。”鸟为食亡,人自相争,后院深宅,自来便不是安心得理之所。
  • 冷情女王:我的平民大小姐

    冷情女王:我的平民大小姐

    最金钱至上的游戏。她玩,单纯就是为了挥霍父亲的钱来气他,父亲越生气她就越开心。她万万没想到的是她会在这里面遇到一个爱她如生命的人,给了她满满的温暖与感动。轰动全服的神秘星级女王是谁?接二连三的算计和危险幕后黑手又是谁?当爱情和友情只能选择一个的时候她该如何取舍?若最后她发现她的恨根本就是个无知又可笑的错误,而一切已经无法挽回时,谁来告诉她应该怎样去面对?