"Nothing else; nothing but self, self, self! The fiend, I doubt not, has made his choicest mirth of you these seven years past, and especially in the mad summer which we have spent together.I see it now! I am awake, disenchanted, disinthralled! Self, self, self! You have embodied yourself in a project.You are a better masquerader than the witches and gypsies yonder; for your disguise is a self-deception.See whither it has brought you! First, you aimed a death-blow, and a treacherous one, at this scheme of a purer and higher life, which so many noble spirits had wrought out.Then, because Coverdale could not be quite your slave, you threw him ruthlessly away.And you took me, too, into your plan, as long as there was hope of my being available, and now fling me aside again, a broken tool! But, foremost and blackest of your sins, you stifled down your inmost consciousness!--you did a deadly wrong to your own heart!--you were ready to sacrifice this girl, whom, if God ever visibly showed a purpose, He put into your charge, and through whom He was striving to redeem you!""This is a woman's view," said Hollingsworth, growing deadly pale,--"a woman's, whose whole sphere of action is in the heart, and who can conceive of no higher nor wider one!""Be silent!" cried Zenobia imperiously."You know neither man nor woman!
The utmost that can be said in your behalf--and because I would not be wholly despicable in my own eyes, but would fain excuse my wasted feelings, nor own it wholly a delusion, therefore I say it--is, that a great and rich heart has been ruined in your breast.Leave me, now.You have done with me, and I with you.Farewell!""Priscilla," said Hollingsworth, "come." Zenobia smiled; possibly I did so too.Not often, in human life, has a gnawing sense of injury found a sweeter morsel of revenge than was conveyed in the tone with which Hollingsworth spoke those two words.It was the abased and tremulous tone of a man whose faith in himself was shaken, and who sought, at last, to lean on an affection.Yes; the strong man bowed himself and rested on this poor Priscilla! Oh, could she have failed him, what a triumph for the lookers-on!
And, at first, I half imagined that she was about to fail him.She rose up, stood shivering like the birch leaves that trembled over her head, and then slowly tottered, rather than walked, towards Zenobia.Arriving at her feet, she sank down there, in the very same attitude which she had assumed on their first meeting, in the kitchen of the old farmhouse.
Zenobia remembered it.
"Ah, Priscilla!" said she, shaking her head, "how much is changed since then! You kneel to a dethroned princess.You, the victorious one! But he is waiting for you.Say what you wish, and leave me.""We are sisters!" gasped Priscilla.
I fancied that I understood the word and action.It meant the offering of herself, and all she had, to be at Zenobia's disposal.But the latter would not take it thus.
"True, we are sisters!" she replied; and, moved by the sweet word, she stooped down and kissed Priscilla; but not lovingly, for a sense of fatal harm received through her seemed to be lurking in Zenobia's heart."We had one father! You knew it from the first; I, but a little while,--else some things that have chanced might have been spared you.But I never wished you harm.You stood between me and an end which I desired.Iwanted a clear path.No matter what I meant.It is over now.Do you forgive me?""O Zenobia," sobbed Priscilla, "it is I that feel like the guilty one!""No, no, poor little thing!" said Zenobia, with a sort of contempt.
"You have been my evil fate, but there never was a babe with less strength or will to do an injury.Poor child! Methinks you have but a melancholy lot before you, sitting all alone in that wide, cheerless heart, where, for aught you know,--and as I, alas! believe,--the fire which you have kindled may soon go out.Ah, the thought makes me shiver for you! What will you do, Priscilla, when you find no spark among the ashes?""Die!" she answered.
"That was well said!" responded Zenobia, with an approving smile.
"There is all a woman in your little compass, my poor sister.Meanwhile, go with him, and live!"She waved her away with a queenly gesture, and turned her own face to the rock.I watched Priscilla, wondering what judgment she would pass between Zenobia and Hollingsworth; how interpret his behavior, so as to reconcile it with true faith both towards her sister and herself; how compel her love for him to keep any terms whatever with her sisterly affection! But, in truth, there was no such difficulty as I imagined.
Her engrossing love made it all clear.Hollingsworth could have no fault.
That was the one principle at the centre of the universe.And the doubtful guilt or possible integrity of other people, appearances, self-evident facts, the testimony of her own senses,--even Hollingsworth's self-accusation, had he volunteered it,--would have weighed not the value of a mote of thistledown on the other side.So secure was she of his right, that she never thought of comparing it with another's wrong, but left the latter to itself.
Hollingsworth drew her arm within his, and soon disappeared with her among the trees.I cannot imagine how Zenobia knew when they were out of sight; she never glanced again towards them.But, retaining a proud attitude so long as they might have thrown back a retiring look, they were no sooner departed,--utterly departed,--than she began slowly to sink down.It was as if a great, invisible, irresistible weight were pressing her to the earth.Settling upon her knees, she leaned her forehead against the rock, and sobbed convulsively; dry sobs they seemed to be, such as have nothing to do with tears.
