Though so sophisticated in many things she was such a child in others that this satisfied her,and they reached the end of their journey on the best of terms.It was about ten o'clock when they arrived at Aldbrickham,the county town of North Wessex.As she would not go to the Temperance Hotel because of the form of his telegram,Jude inquired for another;and a youth who volunteered to find one wheeled their luggage to the George farther on,which proved to be the inn at which Jude had stayed with Arabella on that one occasion of their meeting after their division for years.
Owing,however,to their now entering it by another door,and to his preoccupation,he did not at first recognize the place.When they had engaged their respective rooms they went down to a late supper.During Jude's temporary absence the waiting-maid spoke to Sue.
'I think,ma'am,I remember your relation,or friend,or whatever he is,coming here once before -late,just like this,with his wife -a lady,at any rate,that wasn't you by no manner of means -jest as med be with you now.'
'Oh do you?'said Sue,with a certain sickness of heart.'Though I think you must be mistaken!How long ago was it?'
'About a month or two.A handsome,full-figured woman.They had this room.'
When Jude came back and sat down to supper Sue seemed moping and miserable.'Jude,'she said to him plaintively,at their parting that night upon the landing,'it is not so nice and pleasant as it used to be with us!
I don't like it here -I can't bear the place!And I don't like you so well as I did!'
'How fidgeted you seem,dear!Why do you change like this?'
'Because it was cruel to bring me here!'
'Why?'
'You were lately here with Arabella.There,now I have said it!'
'Dear me,why -'said Jude looking round him.'Yes -it is the same!I really didn't know it,Sue.Well -it is not cruel,since we have come as we have -two relations staying together.'
'How long ago was it you were here?Tell me,tell me!'
'The day before I met you in Christminster,when we went back to Marygreen together.I told you I had met her.'
'Yes,you said you had met her,but you didn't tell me all.Your story was that you had met as estranged people,who were not husband and wife at all in Heaven's sight -not that you had made it up with her.'
'We didn't make it up,'he said sadly.'I can't explain,Sue.'
'You've been false to me;you,my last hope!And I shall never forget it,never!'
'But by your own wish,dear Sue,we are only to be friends,not lovers!It is so very inconsistent of you to --'
'Friends can be jealous!'
'I don't see that.You concede nothing to me and I have to concede everything to you.After all,you were on good terms with your husband at that time.'
'No,I wasn't,Jude.Oh how can you think so!And you have taken me in,even if you didn't intend to.'She was so mortified that he was obliged to take her into her room and close the door lest the people should hear.'Was it this room?Yes it was -I see by your look it was!I won't have it for mine!Oh it was treacherous of you to have her again!I jumped out of the window!'
'But Sue,she was,after all,my legal wife,if not -'
Slipping down on her knees Sue buried her face in the bed and wept.
'I never knew such an unreasonable -such a dog-in-the-manger feeling,'said Jude.'I am not to approach you,nor anybody else!'
'Oh don't you understand my feeling!Why don't you!
Why are you so gross!I jumped out of the window!'
'Jumped out of window?'
'I can't explain!'
It was true that he did not understand her feelings very well.
But he did a little;and began to love her none the less.
'I -I thought you cared for nobody -desired nobody in the world but me at that time -and ever since!'continued Sue.
'It is true.I did not,and don't now!'said Jude,as distressed as she.
'But you must have thought much of her!Or -'
'No -I need not -you don't understand me either -women never do!Why should you get into such a tantrum about nothing?'
Looking up from the quilt she pouted provokingly:'If it hadn't been for that,perhaps I would have gone on to the Temperance Hotel,after all,as you proposed;for I was beginning to think I did belong to you!'
'Oh,it is of no consequence!'said Jude distantly.
'I thought,of course,that she had never been really your wife since she left you of her own accord years and years ago!My sense of it was,that a parting such as yours from her,and mine from him,ended the marriage.'
'I can't say more without speaking against her,and I don't want to do that,'said he.'Yet I must tell you one thing,which would settle the matter in any case.She has married another man -really married him!
I knew nothing about it till after the visit we made here.'
'Married another?...It is a crime -as the world treats it,but does not believe.'
'There -now you are yourself again.Yes,it is a crime -as you don't hold,but would fearfully concede.But I shall never inform against her!And it is evidently a prick of conscience in her that has led her to urge me to get a divorce,that she may remarry this man legally.So you perceive I shall not be likely to see her again.'
'And you didn't really know anything of this when you saw her?' said Sue more gently,as she rose.
'I did not.Considering all things,I don't think you ought to be angry,darling!'
'I am not.But I shan't go to the Temperance Hotel!'
He laughed.'Never mind!'he said.'So that I am near you,I am comparatively happy.It is more than this earthly wretch called Me deserves -you spirit,you disembodied creature,you dear,sweet,tantalizing phantom -hardly flesh at all;so that when I put my arms round you I almost expect them to pass through you as through air!Forgive me for being gross,as you call it!Remember that our calling cousins when really strangers was a snare.The enmity of our parents gave a piquancy to you in my eyes that was intenser even than the novelty of ordinary new acquaintance.'
'Say those pretty lines,then,from Shelley's 'Epipsychidion' as if they meant me!'she solicited,slanting up closer to him as they stood.'Don't you know them?'
