His reasons for not speaking were obvious enough; one was that he did not know what to say, and the other that he was afraid to say it.But, as the time approached when the decision must be made, he had expected that she would speak.And she had not.He saw her daily, sometimes several times a day.She often came into the shop to find Barbara, who made the workroom a playhouse on rainy or cloudy days, and she talked with him on other topics, but she did not mention this one.
It was raining on this particular day, the last day in the "trial month," and Jed, working at his lathe, momentarily expected Barbara to appear, with Petunia under one arm and a bundle of dolls'
clothes under the other, to announce casually that, as it was such bad weather, they had run in to keep him, Mr.Winslow, from getting lonesome.There was precious little opportunity to be lonesome where Babbie was.
But this morning the child did not come and Jed, wondering what the reason for her absence might be, began to feel vaguely uncomfortable.Just what was the matter he did not know, but that there was something wrong with him, Jed Winslow, was plain.He could not seem to keep his mind on his work; he found himself wandering to the window and looking out into the yard, where the lilac bushes whipped and thrashed in the gusts, the overflowing spouts splashed and gurgled, and the sea beyond the edge of the bluff was a troubled stretch of gray and white, seen through diagonal streaks of wind-driven rain.And always when he looked out of that window he glanced toward the little house next door, hoping to see a small figure, bundled under a big rain coat and sheltered by a big umbrella, dodge out of the door and race across the yard toward the shop.
But the door remained shut, the little figure did not appear and, except for the fact that the blinds were not closed and that there was smoke issuing from the chimney of the kitchen, the little house might have been as empty as it had been the month before.
Or as it might be next month.The thought came to Jed with a meaning and emphasis which it had not brought before.A stronger gust than usual howled around the eaves of the shop, the sashes rattled, the panes were beaten by the flung raindrops which pounded down in watery sheets to the sills, and Jed suddenly diagnosed his own case, he knew what was the matter with him--he was lonesome;he, who had lived alone for five years and had hoped to live alone for the rest of his life, was lonesome.
He would not admit it, even to himself; it was ridiculous.He was not lonesome, he was just a little "blue," that was all.It was the weather; he might have caught a slight cold, perhaps his breakfast had not agreed with him.He tried to remember what that breakfast had been.It had been eaten in a hurry, he had been thinking of something else as usual, and, except that it consisted of various odds and ends which he had happened to have on hand, he could not itemize it with exactness.There had been some cold fried potatoes, and some warmed-over pop-overs which had "slumped"in the cooking, and a doughnut or two and--oh, yes, a saucer of canned peaches which had been sitting around for a week and which he had eaten to get out of the way.These, with a cup of warmed-over coffee, made up the meal.Jed couldn't see why a breakfast of that kind should make him "blue." And yet he was blue--yes, and there was no use disguising the fact, he was lonesome.If that child would only come, as she generally did, her nonsense might cheer him up a bit.But she did not come.And if he decided not to permit her mother to occupy the house, she would not come much more.Eh? Why, it was the last day of the month! She might never come again!
Jed shut off the motor and turned away from the lathe.He sank down into his little chair, drew his knee up under his chin, and thought, long and seriously.When the knee slid down to its normal position once more his mind was made up.Mrs.Armstrong might remain in the little house--for a few months more, at any rate.
Even if she insisted upon a year's lease it wouldn't do any great harm.He would wait until she spoke to him about it and then he would give his consent.And--and it would please Captain Sam, at any rate.
He rose and, going to the window, looked out once more across the yard.What he saw astonished him.The back door of the house was partially open and a man was just coming out.The man, in dripping oil-skins and a sou'wester, was Philander Hardy, the local expressman.Philander turned and spoke to some one in the house behind him.Jed opened the shop door a crack and listened.
"Yes, ma'am," he heard Hardy say."I'll be back for 'em about four o'clock this afternoon.Rain may let up a little mite by that time, and anyhow, I'll have the covered wagon.Your trunks won't get wet, ma'am; I'll see to that."A minute later Jed, an old sweater thrown over his head and shoulders, darted out of the front door of his shop.The express wagon with Hardy on the driver's seat was just moving off.Jed called after it.
"Hi, Philander!" he called, raising his voice only a little, for fear of being overheard at the Armstrong house."Hi, Philander, come here a minute.I want to see you."Mr.Hardy looked over his shoulder and then backed his equipage opposite the Winslow gate.
"Hello, Jedidah Shavin's," he observed, with a grin."Didn't know you for a minute, with that shawl over your front crimps.What you got on your mind; anything except sawdust?"Jed was too much perturbed even to resent the loathed name "Jedidah.""Philander," he whispered, anxiously; "say, Philander, what does she want? Mrs.Armstrong, I mean? What is it you're comin' back for at four o'clock?"Philander looked down at the earnest face under the ancient sweater.Then he winked, solemnly.
"Well, I tell you, Shavin's," he said."You see, I don't know how 'tis, but woman folks always seem to take a terrible shine to me.
