`Only a couple of minutes later and you'd have made me blunder against the fellow poking about' here with his damned dark lantern.
The widow of Mr Verloc, motionless in the middle of the shop, said insistently:
`Go in and put that light out, Tom.It will drive me crazy.'
She saw vaguely his vehement gesture of refusal.Nothing in the world would have induced Ossipon to go into the parlour.He was not superstitious, but there was too much blood on the floor; a beastly pool of it all round the hat.He judged he had been already too near that corpse for his peace of mind - for the safety of his neck, perhaps!
`At the meter then! There.Look.In that corner.'
The robust form of Comrade Ossipon, striding brusque and shadowy across the shop, squatted in a corner obediently; but this obedience was without grace.He fumbled nervously - and suddenly in the sound of a muttered curse the light behind the glazed door flicked out to a gasping, hysterical sigh of a woman.Night, the inevitable reward of men's faithful labours on this earth, night had fallen on Mr Verloc, the tried revolutionist - `one of the old lot' - the humble guardian of society; the invaluable secret agent A of Baron Stott-Wartenheim's dispatches; a servant of law and order, faithful, trusted, accurate, admirable, with perhaps one single amiable weakness:
the idealistic belief in being loved for himself.
Ossipon groped his way back through the stuffy atmosphere, as black as ink now, to the counter.The voice of Mrs Verloc, standing in the middle of the shop, vibrated after him in that blackness with a desperate protest.
`I will not be hanged, Tom.I will not--'
She broke off.Ossipon from the counter issued a warning: `Don't shout like this,' then seemed to reflect profoundly.`You did this thing quite by yourself?' he inquired in a hollow voice, but with an appearance of masterful calmness which filled Mrs Verloc's heart with grateful confidence in his protecting strength.
`Yes,' she whispered, invisible.
`I wouldn't have believed it possible,' he muttered.`Nobody would.'
She heard him move about and the snapping of a lock in the parlour door.
Comrade Ossipon had turned the key on Mr Verloc's repose; and this he did not from reverence for its eternal nature or any other obscurely sentimental consideration, but for the precise reason that he was not at all sure that there was not someone else hiding somewhere in the house.He did not believe the woman, or rather he was incapable by now of judging what could be true, possible, or even probable in this astounding universe.He was terrified out of all capacity for belief or disbelief in regard to this extraordinary affair, which began with police inspectors and Embassies and would end goodness knows where - on the scaffold for someone.He was terrified at the thought that he could not prove the use he made of his time ever since seven o'clock, for he had been skulking about Brett Street.He was terrified at this savage woman who had brought him in there, and would probably saddle him with complicity, at least if he were not careful.He was terrified at the rapidity with which he had been involved in such danger - decoyed into it.It was some twenty minutes since he had met her - not more.
The voice of Mrs Verloc rose subdued, pleading piteously: `Don't let them hang me, Tom! Take me out of the country.I'll work for you.I'll slave for you.I'll love you.I've no one in the world...Who would look at me if you don't!' She ceased for a moment; then in the depths of the loneliness made round her by an insignificant thread of blood trickling off the handle of a knife, she found a dreadful inspiration to her - who had been the respectable girl of the Belgravian mansion, the loyal, respectable wife of Mr Verloc.`I won't ask you to marry me,' she breathed out in shamefaced accents.
She moved a step forward in the darkness.He was terrified at her.He would not have been surprised if she had suddenly produced another knife destined for his breast.He certainly would have made no resistance.He had really not enough fortitude in him just then to tell her to keep back.
But he inquired in a cavernous, strange tone: `Was he asleep?'
`No,' she cried, and went on rapidly: `He wasn't.Not he.He had been telling me that nothing could touch him.After taking the boy away from under my very eyes to kill him - the loving, innocent, harmless lad.My own, I tell you.He was lying on the couch quite easy - after killing the boy - my boy.I would have gone on the streets to get out of his sight.
And he says to me like this: `Come here,' after telling me I had helped to kill the boy.You hear, Tom? He says like this: `Come here,' after taking my very heart out of me along with the boy to smash in the dirt.'
She ceased, then dreamily repeated twice: `Blood and dirt.Blood and dirt.' A great light broke upon Comrade Ossipon.It was that half-witted lad then who had perished in the park.And the fooling of everybody all round appeared more complete than ever - colossal.He exclaimed scientifically, in the extremity of his astonishment: `The degenerate - by heavens!'
`Come here.' The voice of Mrs Verloc rose again.`What did he think I was made of? Tell me, Tom.Come here! Me! Like this! I had been looking at the knife, and I thought I would come then if he wanted me so much.
Oh, yes! I came - for the last time...With the knife.'
He was excessively terrified at her - the sister of the degenerate -a degenerate herself of a murdering type...or else of the lying type.
Comrade Ossipon might have been said to be terrified scientifically in addition to all other kinds of fear.It was an immeasurable and composite funk, which from its very excess gave him in the dark a false appearance of calm and thoughtful deliberation.For he moved and spoke with difficulty, being as if half frozen in his will and mind - and no one could see his ghastly face.He felt half dead.
He leaped a foot high.Unexpectedly Mrs Verloc had desecrated the unbroken, reserved decency of her home by a shrill and terrible shriek.
