One day a chocolate-ration was issued. There had been no such issue for weeks or months past. He remembered quite clearly that precious little morsel of chocolate. It was a two-ounce slab （they still talked about ounces in those days） between the three of them. It was obvious that it ought to be divided into three equal parts. Suddenly， as though he were listening to somebody else， Winston heard himself demanding in a loud booming voice that he should be given the whole piece. His mother told him not to be greedy. There was a long， nagging argument that went round and round， with shouts， whines， tears， remonstrances， bargainings. His tiny sister， clinging to her mother with both hands， exactly like a baby monkey， sat looking over her shoulder at him with large， mournful eyes. In the end his mother broke off three-quarters of the chocolate and gave it to Winston， giving the other quarter to his sister. The little girl took hold of it and looked at it dully， perhaps not knowing what it was. Winston stood watching her for a moment. Then with a sudden swift spring he had snatched the piece of chocolate out of his sister’s hand and was fleeing for the door.
“Winston， Winston！” his mother called after him. “Come back！ Give your sister back her chocolate！”
He stopped， but did not come back. His mother’s anxious eyes were fixed on his face. Even now he was thinking about the thing， he did not know what it was that was on the point of happening. His sister， conscious of having been robbed of something， had set up a feeble wail. His mother drew her arm round the child and pressed its face against her breast. Something in the gesture told him that his sister was dying. He turned and fled down the stairs. with the chocolate growing sticky in his hand.
He never saw his mother again. After he had devoured the chocolate he felt somewhat ashamed of himself and hung about in the streets for several hours， until hunger drove him home. When he came back his mother had disappeared. This was already becoming normal at that time. Nothing was gone from the room except his mother and his sister. They had not taken any clothes， not even his mother’s overcoat. To this day he did not know with any certainty that his mother was dead. It was perfectly possible that she had merely been sent to a forced-labour camp. As for his sister， she might have been removed， like Winston himself， to one of the colonies for homeless children （Reclamation Centres， they were called） which had grown up as a result of the civil war， or she might have been sent to the labour camp along with his mother， or simply left somewhere or other to die.
The dream was still vivid in his mind， especially the enveloping protecting gesture of the arm in which its whole meaning seemed to be contained. His mind went back to another dream of two months ago. Exactly as his mother had sat on the dingy whitequilted bed， with the child clinging to her， so she had sat in the sunken ship， far underneath him， and drowning deeper every minute， but still looking up at him through the darkening water.
He told Julia the story of his mother’s disappearance. Without opening her eyes she rolled over and settled herself into a more comfortable position.
“I expect you were a beastly little swine in those days，” she said indistinctly. “All children are swine.”
“Yes. But the real point of the story—”
From her breathing it was evident that she was going off to sleep again. He would have liked to continue talking about his mother. He did not suppose， from what he could remember of her， that she had been an unusual woman， still less an intelligent one； and yet she had possessed a kind of nobility， a kind of purity， simply because the standards that she obeyed were private ones. Her feelings were her own， and could not be altered from outside. It would not have occurred to her that an action which is ineffectual thereby becomes meaningless. If you loved someone， you loved him， and when you had nothing else to give， you still gave him love. When the last of the chocolate was gone， his mother had clasped the child in her arms. It was no use， it changed nothing， it did not produce more chocolate， it did not avert the child’s death or her own； but it seemed natural to her to do it. The refugee woman in the boat had also covered the little boy with her arm， which was no more use against the bullets than a sheet of paper. The terrible thing that the Party had done was to persuade you that mere impulses， mere feelings， were of no account， while at the same time robbing you of all power over the material world. When once you were in the grip of the Party， what you felt or did not feel， what you did or refrained from doing， made literally no difference. Whatever happened you vanished， and neither you nor your actions were ever heard of again. You were lifted clean out of the stream of history. And yet to the people of only two generations ago this would not have seemed all-important， because they were not attempting to alter history. They were governed by private loyalties which they did not question. What mattered were individual relationships， and a completely helpless gesture， an embrace， a tear， a word spoken to a dying man， could have value in itself. The proles， it suddenly occurred to him， had remained in this condition. They were not loyal to a party or a country or an idea， they were loyal to one another. For the first time in his life he did not despise the proles or think of them merely as an inert force which would one day spring to life and regenerate the world. The proles had stayed human. They had not become hardened inside. They had held on to the primitive emotions which he himself had to re-learn by conscious effort. And in thinking this he remembered， without apparent relevance， how a few weeks ago he had seen a severed hand lying on the pavement and had kicked it into the gutter as though it had been a cabbage-stalk.
“The proles are human beings，” he said aloud. “We are not human.”
“Why not？” said Julia， who had woken up again.
He thought for a little while. “Has it ever occurred to you，” he said， “that the best thing for us to do would be simply to walk out of here before it’s too late， and never see each other again？”
